Holding my hand was my seven-year-old son, Noah. He was dressed in a miniature suit that was slightly too large for him, the sleeves swallowing his small hands. He hadn’t cried during the service. He had stood with a rigid, unnatural stillness that worried me more than tears would have. He was staring at the mahogany coffin, his eyes wide, dark, and unblinking.
As the funeral director, a man named Mr. Halloway who wore professional mournfulness like a second skin, gestured for the pallbearers to prepare the lowering mechanism, Noah squeezed my hand.
It wasn’t a gentle squeeze. It was sudden. Hard. Desperate.
“Daddy…” he whispered. His voice was trembling, a thin reed breaking in the wind. “Mom is still cold.”
I stopped walking. The air left my lungs.