But inside me, the silence had become heavier than grief.
That day was my sixty-second birthday.
No one called.
No flowers arrived.
By late afternoon, I was sitting alone at the kitchen table with a small piece of chocolate cake I had bought for myself.
A single candle stood in the center.
I did not even have the courage to light it.
As I stared at that candle, I finally admitted something I had been ashamed to say aloud.
I did not want another quiet evening.
I did not want sympathy or polite conversation.
I wanted passion.
I wanted a man to look at me with desire and make me remember that I was still a woman—not only a mother, a widow, or an older person everyone had stopped noticing.