I had heavy aluminium crutches that never fitted properly, because a decent prosthetic was, in my mother’s words, an unnecessary expense at your age.
When guests came, I was sent upstairs.
Stay out of sight. We don’t need everybody asking uncomfortable questions about your leg.
She was not protecting me. She was embarrassed by me. I understood the difference by about eleven.
PART 2
When I was sixteen they hired a photographer for a formal family portrait.
I was trying to cross the living room quietly, out of the way, and the tip of my crutch slipped on the polished floor.
A glass of red wine went over and across my mother’s white cashmere rug.
I hit the floor hard. My hip was black for a fortnight.
My father never asked whether I was hurt.